Heart Break Hotel

What is love?

My good friend Webster defines it as "A strong positive emotion of regard and affection." When I read that definition over and over again I notice 2 perticular words, "POSITIVE" & "EMOTION." I start to think what happens when the "positive emotion" fades away?

I have been going through a lot of problems with my boyfriend Steve. We would fight and fight about the simplest things. This is my first real relationship and I am seeing it all fall apart. How can two people that were so deep in love start hating each other. We have only been together for 3 years, but for some reason it feels like 30! I finally decided to end all the problems by telling him that it was over. I left our apartment on March 1st a strong, courageous and determaind!

On March 3rd I came back.......

Alice has always been a open book. Life never fears her and couriasity determins her. She does what she wants, where she wants, when ever you wants. Well that is until a certain person came back into her life.

Dj was a co worker from one of Alice's previous jobs 4 years ago. At the time Dj was recently seperated from his on again off again girlfriend and shared custody of their child. A regular pot head that just wants to party all the time. At 20 years old he thought he wanted to play daddy and mommy with baby. When reality hit him, he decided that the game was over. So he decided to start playing a new game with Alice, the game of LOVE!

They did the typical flirting and dating that young people do. At the time Alice was into the whole "hard to get mode", and Dj was into "get the hard mode". Alice knew she really liked Dj but she had so many other issues to deal with (which we will discuss in a future post) she knew it would never work out. Alice had to say good bye to her job and also to her good "friend" Dj.

Fast forward 4 years later right in time where I needed Alice to understand me and help me get through this "breakup" little MR sunshine walks into her life. She told me "I have to tell you something". I said "what is it?" I have seen this look on her face before, usually when something really really exciting happens like.."Oh shit you have a boyfriend, right?" I told her. She looked at me with a glowing face and blurted out "Yes!" I could only imagine who she is dating, I have my list of people that I would never approve of, luckily this wasn't one of them. "It's Dj" she said. I gave her a big hug and congratulated her. I asked her how long they were going out for and she told me "about 3 weeks". All I could do is smile for her and hope for the best!

A week passed by and no word from Alice. I knew that she was probably in lala land with her brand new boy toy Dj. I finally get a call from her with some exciting news! I called right away and she said "I know that might be a little upset that I didn't tell you sooner, but I am moving in with my boyfriend Dj!" I was shocked and confused. How can someone that has seen the mistakes that I made with moving in with someone way fast, do the same exact thing? I could of just kept my mouth shut and left the whole situation alone, but if I had someone 3 years ago giving me advise about moving in with someone to soon, I would definitely listen..... I think. Anyway, I told her exactly how I felt. "Your making a mistake, how can you move in with someone that you just started to date again a little over a month ago?" Nothing I said could change her mind, and nothing she told me could make me see how this can possibly be a good idea! Bitter words where exchanged that day. We didn't talk for weeks.